Overeating v2 - why self-destruction?

Diary

A problem again, originated since my attempt to full-fast for a few days and do half day fasts for some time - which i’ve enjoyed, but cant deny the fact that this is a coincident. Nonetheless, the habit is still there despite the fact that i’m to fasting - and my suspicious is the fact that i’m eating bread. Not nutritious enough - keeps me full but not giving my body the nutrients it needs thus making me more hungry later on in the day (at night) when i’m relaxed

It’s a problem, I know it’s something i’ve done in the past, but not for a very long time.

Decision now, to go back to my old habit, no bread. a challenge indeed. but I will stick to white rice? let me try that for a while. I need food that is less fibrous. —- so less vegetables, no need to have any at dinner.

Let’s see how that goes.

Why am I punishing myself, and why am I set destructive - are the questions i’m really interested in.

A quick answer now is - we always where and always will be - and I say we, because to some extent, everyone is. Where do we draw the line is always the point that everything falls back to. Just like a large group of poeople, the multiple interests of the body often compete and make friends, and fight with one another! Do they need a leader to regulate them, can they regulate themselves on their own if they learn to individually harmonise?