The Volunteer

FD

My tendency to compare is subtle yet existent. A necessity to assess the means of affiliation. On that basis, I choose to how to interact.

I’ve just realised that i don’t have to go too far to volunteer for something that is outside my skillset or community - It’s admirable, but also naive. Perhase finding a way to ‘volunteer’ for the people i know, the people who have once helped me in the past is a better way of doing things, and more challenging. It also does’nt work, my close associating with them, as well as my history prevents me from doing so - and to that i might say, a mature self can change this? someone who’s comfortable with his past, and present associations? that’s certainly not me now. I need the distance, it’s important. butit’ll be good as i get more comfortable, because this will be a reaccuring situation in different areas. YOu don’t just escape people to change myself and my habits, that’s not how things work. limits are good though

The problem with this i see is that, I' seem to have a problem associating with most of those people. I’m not too sure if it’s within my skillset either.

I haven’t found the ‘right’ thing for me to volunteer in yet.